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Bestselling books lists: Fiction, nonfiction, children’s

The Baltimore Sun’s weekly bestseller lists of fiction, non-fiction, biography, lifestyle, political, children’s and young adult books are compiled by staff members of Skyhorse Publishing based on publishing houses’, booksellers’, online retailers’ and other sources’ sales data covering the week ending Oct. 26. The reviews and recommendations are compiled by Skyhorse Publishing staff. The Sun welcomes suggestions on local authors to feature via email at books@baltsun.com.

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Bestsellers

Fiction

The Widow: A Novel book cover imageThe Widow: A Novel
John Grisham
Doubleday (October 21, 2025)

Once he hooks the richest client of his career, Simon works quietly to keep her wealth under the radar. But soon her story begins to crack. When she is hospitalized after a car accident, Simon realizes that nothing is as it seems, and he finds himself on trial for a crime he swears he didn’t commit: murder.


The Black Wolf: A Novel (Chief Inspector Gamache Novel, 20) book cover imageThe Black Wolf: A Novel (Chief Inspector Gamache Novel, 20)
Louise Penny
Minotaur Books (October 28, 2025)

From the apparent peace of his little village, Gamache finds himself playing a lethal game of cat and mouse with an invisible foe who is gathering forces and preparing to strike.


The Housemaid book cover imageThe Housemaid
Freida McFadden
Grand Central Publishing (August 23, 2022)

An addictive psychological thriller with a jaw-dropping twist. Perfect for fans of Ruth Ware, Lisa Jewell, and Verity.


Reminders of Him: A Novel book cover imageReminders of Him: A Novel
Colleen Hoover
Montlake (January 18, 2022)

A troubled young mother yearns for a shot at redemption in this heartbreaking yet hopeful story from #1 New York Times bestselling author Colleen Hoover.


Regretting You book cover imageRegretting You
Colleen Hoover
Montlake (December 10, 2019)

While struggling to rebuild everything that crashed around them, Morgan finds comfort in the last person she expects to, and Clara turns to the one boy she’s been forbidden to see. With each passing day, new secrets, resentment, and misunderstandings make mother and daughter fall further apart. So far apart, it might be impossible for them to ever fall back together.


The Secret of Secrets: A Novel book cover imageThe Secret of Secrets: A Novel
Dan Brown
Doubleday (September 9, 2025)

The world’s most celebrated thriller writer and author of The Da Vinci Code returns with his most stunning novel yet—a propulsive, twisty, thought-provoking masterpiece that will entertain readers as only Dan Brown can do.


Bonds of Hercules (Deluxe Limited Edition) book cover imageBonds of Hercules (Deluxe Limited Edition)
Jasmine Mas
Canary Street Press (October 28, 2025)

Packed with spicy romance, Greek mythology, and dangerous husbands, Bonds of Hercules is perfect for fans of tension, betrayal, and choosing sides.


Gone Before Goodbye book cover imageGone Before Goodbye
Harlan Coben and Reese Witherspoon
Grand Central Publishing (October 14, 2025)

An unforgettable suspense novel that combines the storytelling talents of Academy Award-winning actor Reese Witherspoon and internationally bestselling author Harlan Coben. Gone Before Goodbye is the story of a woman trapped in a deadly conspiracy—where uncovering the truth could cost her everything.


The Frozen River: A GMA Book Club Pick: A Novel book cover imageThe Frozen River: A GMA Book Club Pick: A Novel
Ariel Lawhon
Vintage Books (November 5, 2024)

Clever, layered, and subversive, Ariel Lawhon’s newest offering introduces an unsung heroine who refused to accept anything less than justice at a time when women were considered best seen and not heard.


Alchemised book cover imageAlchemised
SenLinYu
Del Rey (September 23, 2025)

In this riveting dark fantasy debut, a woman with missing memories fights to survive a war-torn world of necromancy and alchemy—and the man tasked with unearthing the deepest secrets of her past.

Non-fiction: Biography & autobiography

To Rescue the American Spirit: Teddy Roosevelt and the Birth of a Superpower (The Presidential Series) book cover imageTo Rescue the American Spirit: Teddy Roosevelt and the Birth of a Superpower (The Presidential Series)
Bret Baier
Mariner Books (October 21, 2025)

From #1 New York Times bestselling author and Fox News Channel’s Chief Political Anchor, a fresh and fascinating exploration of the extraordinary life of Teddy Roosevelt, revealing how his bold leadership thrust America onto the world stage and changed the course of world history.


The Uncool: A Memoir book cover imageThe Uncool: A Memoir
Cameron Crowe
Avid Reader Press / Simon & Schuster (October 28, 2025)

The long-awaited memoir by Cameron Crowe—one of America’s most iconic journalists and filmmakers—The Uncool is a joyful dispatch from a lost world, a chronicle of the real-life events that became Almost Famous, and a coming-of-age journey filled with music legends as you’ve never seen them before.


Man's Search for Meaning book cover imageMan’s Search for Meaning
Viktor E. Frankl
Beacon Press (June 1, 2006)

A book for finding purpose and strength in times of great despair, the international best-seller is still just as relevant today as when it was first published.


Night book cover imageNight
Elie Wiesel
Hill and Wang (January 16, 2006)

Night offers much more than a litany of the daily terrors, everyday perversions, and rampant sadism at Auschwitz and Buchenwald; it also eloquently addresses many of the philosophical as well as personal questions implicit in any serious consideration of what the Holocaust was, what it meant, and what its legacy is and will be.


The Running Ground: A Father, a Son, and the Simplest of Sports book cover imageThe Running Ground: A Father, a Son, and the Simplest of Sports
Nicholas Thompson
Random House (October 28, 2025)

A profound meditation on what running can teach us about our limits and our lives by a record-setting distance runner who is now the CEO of The Atlantic.

Non-fiction: Self-help & advice

The Let Them Theory: A Life-Changing Tool That Millions of People Can't Stop Talking About book cover imageThe Let Them Theory: A Life-Changing Tool That Millions of People Can’t Stop Talking About
Mel Robbins and Sawyer Robbins
Hay House LLC (December 24, 2024)

Two simple words—Let Them—will set you free. Free from the opinions, drama, and judgments of others. Free from the exhausting cycle of trying to manage everything and everyone around you. The Let Them Theory puts the power to create a life you love back in your hands—and this book will show you exactly how to do it.


Read Your Mind: Proven Habits for Success from the World's Greatest Mentalist book cover imageRead Your Mind: Proven Habits for Success from the World’s Greatest Mentalist
Oz Pearlman
Viking (October 28, 2025)

From one of the most sought-after entertainers today, a powerful, modern twist on How To Win Friends and Influence People that blends the intrigue of mentalism with practical strategies for success.


Atomic Habits book cover imageAtomic Habits
James Clear
Avery (October 16, 2018)

No matter your goals, Atomic Habits offers a proven framework for improving—every day. James Clear, one of the world’s leading experts on habit formation, reveals practical strategies that will teach you exactly how to form good habits, break bad ones, and master the tiny behaviors that lead to remarkable results.


The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma book cover imageThe Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma
Bessel van der Kolk MD
Penguin Books (September 8, 2015)

In The Body Keeps the Score, Dr. van der Kolk uses recent scientific advances to show how trauma literally reshapes both body and brain, compromising sufferers’ capacities for pleasure, engagement, self-control, and trust.


Don't Believe Everything You Think book cover imageDon’t Believe Everything You Think
Joseph Nguyen
Authors Equity (October 29, 2024)

In this book, you’ll discover the root cause of all psychological and emotional suffering and how to achieve freedom of mind to effortlessly create the life you’ve always wanted to live.

Non-fiction: Lifestyle

Outlive: The Science and Art of Longevity book cover imageOutlive: The Science and Art of Longevity
Peter Attia, MD and Bill Gifford
Harmony (March 28, 2023)

Aging and longevity are far more malleable than we think; our fate is not set in stone. With the right roadmap, you can plot a different path for your life, one that lets you outlive your genes to make each decade better than the one before.


The Pioneer Woman Cooks―The Essential Recipes: 120 Greatest Hits, New Twists, and Perfected Classics book cover imageThe Pioneer Woman Cooks―The Essential Recipes: 120 Greatest Hits, New Twists, and Perfected Classics
Ree Drummond
William Morrow Cookbooks (October 28, 2025)

The ninth blockbuster cookbook by #1 New York Times bestselling author Ree Drummond, featuring tested, perfected versions of her all-time favorite, most crowd-pleasing, and timelessly popular recipes—the classics that families turn to every day and year after year.


Forgotten Home Apothecary : 250 Powerful Remedies at Your Fingertips book cover imageForgotten Home Apothecary : 250 Powerful Remedies at Your Fingertips
Dr. Nicole Apelian
Global Brother (October 8, 2024)

This is the only holistic medicine book out there where you’ll find the time-tested natural remedies our grandparents relied on, back when apothecaries hadn’t yet been replaced by pharmacies.


The Promise of Heaven: 31 Reasons to Get Excited About Your Eternal Home book cover imageThe Promise of Heaven: 31 Reasons to Get Excited About Your Eternal Home
Dr. David Jeremiah
Thomas Nelson (October 7, 2025)

Have you ever looked around and thought, There has to be more than this? You’re not alone . . . and you’re right. Heaven is your forever home. In The Promise of Heaven, Dr. David Jeremiah invites you to lift your eyes above the disappointments and burdens of this world and catch a glimpse of the one to come.

Left, right, and center

Nobody's Girl: A Memoir of Surviving Abuse and Fighting for Justice book cover imageNobody’s Girl: A Memoir of Surviving Abuse and Fighting for Justice
Virginia Roberts Giuffre
Knopf (October 21, 2025)

Nobody’s Girl is an astonishing affirmation of the late Virginia Roberts Giuffre’s unshakable will—first, to claw her way out of victimhood, and then to shine light on wrongdoing and fight for a safer, fairer world. Equal parts intimate and fierce, it is a remarkable narrative of fortitude in the face of depravity and despair.


How to Test Negative for Stupid: And Why Washington Never Will book cover imageHow to Test Negative for Stupid: And Why Washington Never Will
John Kennedy
Broadside Books (October 7, 2025)

One of the most distinctive and funny politicians, Senator John Kennedy (the one from Louisiana) offers his perceptive (and hilarious) takes on the ridiculousness of political life in this scathingly witty takedown of Washington and its elite denizens.


1929: Inside the Greatest Crash in Wall Street History--and How It Shattered a Nation book cover image1929: Inside the Greatest Crash in Wall Street History–and How It Shattered a Nation
Andrew Ross Sorkin
Viking (October 14, 2025)

More than just a history, 1929 is a crucial blueprint for understanding the cycles of speculation, the forces that drive financial upheaval, and the warning signs we ignore at our peril.


Retribution: Donald Trump and the Campaign That Changed America book cover imageRetribution: Donald Trump and the Campaign That Changed America
Jonathan Karl
Dutton (October 28, 2025)

In Retribution, Jonathan Karl’s unparalleled access brings us behind closed doors deep inside the White House and presidential campaigns, revealing the extraordinary moments that ended one man’s presidency and brought another back to power.


Under Siege: My Family's Fight to Save Our Nation book cover imageUnder Siege: My Family’s Fight to Save Our Nation
Eric Trump
Threshold Editions (October 14, 2025)

In this book, Eric offers an unfiltered look at the highs and lows of life in the Trump world; how he took the reins of a multibillion-dollar empire at thirty-three years old; enlightening stories from real estate to the boardroom of The Celebrity Apprentice, and the chaos of the campaign trail.


The Psychology of Money: Timeless lessons on wealth, greed, and happiness book cover imageThe Psychology of Money: Timeless lessons on wealth, greed, and happiness
Morgan Housel
Harriman House (September 8, 2020)

In The Psychology of Money, award-winning author Morgan Housel shares 19 short stories exploring the different ways people think about money and teaches you how to make better sense of one of life’s most important topics.


107 Days book cover image107 Days
Kamala Harris
Simon & Schuster (September 23, 2025)

For the first time, and with surprising and revealing insights, former Vice President Kamala Harris tells the story of one of the wildest and most consequential presidential campaigns in American history.


Black AF History: The Un-Whitewashed Story of America book cover imageBlack AF History: The Un-Whitewashed Story of America
Michael Harriot
Dey Street Books (September 19, 2023)

From acclaimed columnist and political commentator Michael Harriot, a searingly smart and bitingly hilarious retelling of American history that corrects the record and showcases the perspectives and experiences of Black Americans.


Hostage book cover imageHostage
Eli Sharabi
Harper Influence (October 7, 2025)

In a raw and unflinching memoir, Eli Sharabi, a survivor of 491 days in Hamas captivity, recounts the harrowing ordeal of his abduction from Kibbutz Be’eri on October 7th, 2023, the loss of his wife and daughters, and his unyielding resolve to survive.


Separation of Church and Hate: A Sane Person's Guide to Taking Back the Bible from Fundamentalists, Fascists, and Flock-Fleecing Frauds book cover imageSeparation of Church and Hate: A Sane Person’s Guide to Taking Back the Bible from Fundamentalists, Fascists, and Flock-Fleecing Frauds
John Fugelsang
Avid Reader Press / Simon & Schuster (September 9, 2025)

In the spirit of George Carlin and Christopher Hitchens, the son of a former Catholic nun and a Franciscan brother delivers a deeply irreverent and biblically correct takedown of far-right Christian hatred—a book for believers, atheists, agnostics, and anyone who’ll ever have to deal with a Christian nationalist.

Children’s

Partypooper: A side-splitting birthday disaster from the #1 international bestselling Diary of a Wimpy Kid series (Book 20) book cover imagePartypooper: A side-splitting birthday disaster from the #1 international bestselling Diary of a Wimpy Kid series (Book 20)
Jeff Kinney
Harry N. Abrams (October 21, 2025)

It’s Greg’s birthday—and you’re invited to the chaos. In Partypooper, the 20th book in Jeff Kinney’s global smash-hit Diary of a Wimpy Kid series, Greg Heffley is planning the ultimate party—for himself.


My First Learn-to-Write Workbook: Practice for Kids with Pen Control, Line Tracing, Letters, and More! book cover imageMy First Learn-to-Write Workbook: Practice for Kids with Pen Control, Line Tracing, Letters, and More!
Crystal Radke
Callisto Kids (August 27, 2019)

Help your little one build communication skills with the ultimate writing workbook for kids ages 3 to 5. More than 2 million copies sold!


I Love you to the Moon and Back book cover imageI Love you to the Moon and Back
Amelia Hepworth and Tim Warnes
Tiger Tales (September 17, 2024)

Show your child just how strong your love is every minute of the day with this sweet, gentle rhyme that’s perfect for sharing. Now in a jacketed hardcover format!


The Spooky Wheels on the Bus: (A Holiday Wheels on the Bus Book) book cover imageThe Spooky Wheels on the Bus: (A Holiday Wheels on the Bus Book)
J. Elizabeth Mills
Cartwheel Books (July 1, 2010)

Count from One Spooky Bus up to Ten Goofy Ghosts as this Halloween ride races through town picking up a few unsuspecting passengers along the way! Eye-catching art and a bouncy, countdown rhyme is sure to make this a read-aloud favorite!


Room on the Broom book cover imageRoom on the Broom
Julia Donaldson
Puffin Books (August 25, 2003)

From the acclaimed creators of The Gruffalo comes an enchanting, family-friendly tale full of quick wits, friendship, and adventure that is perfect for celebrating the Halloween season.

Young adult

Sunrise on the Reaping (A Hunger Games Novel) book cover imageSunrise on the Reaping (A Hunger Games Novel)
Suzanne Collins
Scholastic Press (March 18, 2025)

The phenomenal fifth book in the Hunger Games series! When you’ve been set up to lose everything you love, what is there left to fight for?


Lord of the Flies book cover imageLord of the Flies
William Golding
Penguin Books (December 16, 2003)

At the dawn of the next world war, a plane crashes on an uncharted island, stranding a group of schoolboys. At first, with no adult supervision, their freedom is something to celebrate. This far from civilization they can do anything they want. Anything. But as order collapses, as strange howls echo in the night, as terror begins its reign, the hope of adventure seems as far removed from reality as the hope of being rescued.


Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Interactive Illustrated Edition) book cover imageHarry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Interactive Illustrated Edition)
J. K. Rowling
Scholastic Inc. (October 14, 2025)

A stunning special edition of the fourth book in the Harry Potter series, illustrated in brilliant full color and featuring eight unique interactive elements, including the Maze at the Triwizard Tournament, the Goblet of Fire itself, and more!


The Book of Dust: The Rose Field (Book of Dust, Volume 3) book cover imageThe Book of Dust: The Rose Field (Book of Dust, Volume 3)
Philip Pullman
Knopf Books for Young Readers (October 23, 2025)

As ever, Philip Pullman is using the language of fantasy to illuminate our world and to explore the deepest questions of what it means to be alive and awake to all the splendors and horrors around us. The extraordinary novels of The Book of Dust speak powerfully to today’s readers and will take their place alongside the forever-favorites of His Dark Materials.


The Giver book cover imageThe Giver
Lois Lowry
Clarion Books (July 1, 1993)

Life in the community where Jonas lives is idyllic. Designated birthmothers produce newchildren, who are assigned to appropriate family units. Citizens are assigned their partners and their jobs. No one thinks to ask questions. Everyone obeys. Everyone is the same. Except Jonas.

Recommended Books

Wisdom Takes Work: Learn. Apply. Repeat. (The Stoic Virtues Series) book cover imageWisdom Takes Work: Learn. Apply. Repeat. (The Stoic Virtues Series)
Ryan Holiday
Portfolio (October 21, 2025)

In this much-anticipated final installment in the Stoic Virtues series, Ryan Holiday makes the case for the virtue on which all other virtues depend.

Of all the stoic virtues – courage, discipline, justice, and wisdom – wisdom is the most elusive. This is especially apparent in an age where reaction and idle chatter are rewarded, and restraint and thoughtfulness are unfashionable. The great statesman and philosophers of the past would not be fooled, as we are, by headlines or appearances or the primal pull of tribalism. They knew too much of history, of their own flaws, of the need for collaboration to do any of that. That’s wisdom – and we need it more than ever.

Wisdom is Ryan Holiday’s guiding principle, and Wisdom Takes Work is the culmination of all his work. Drawing on fascinating stories of the ancient and modern figures alike, Holiday shows how to cultivate wisdom through reading, self-education, and experience. Through the lives of Montaigne, Seneca, Joan Didion, Abraham Lincoln, and others, Holiday teaches us how to listen more than we talk, to think with nuance, to ruthlessly question our own beliefs, and to develop a method of self-education. He argues convincingly for the necessity of mental struggle and warns against taking shortcuts that deprive us of real knowledge. And he shows us how dangerous power and intelligence can be without the tempering influence of wisdom.

An absence of curiosity and prudence is a catastrophe for all of us, argues Ryan Holiday. This incredibly timely book both diagnoses the greatest problem of our current moment and offers solutions for the way forward. Wisdom is work – but it’s worth it.

 


The Christmas Stranger book cover imageThe Christmas Stranger
Richard Paul Evans
Gallery Books (November 4, 2025)

From the bestselling author of the Christmas classic The Christmas Box and the movie The Noel Diary comes a powerful and thought-provoking holiday story about love, loss, and the mysterious workings of heaven.

Three years after losing his family in a Christmas Eve accident, grief-stricken Paul Wanlass hasn’t just given up on Christmas, he’s given up on life. He can’t imagine anything to keep him here—not his work as a computer repairman, not the residents in his Salt Lake City neighborhood, and certainly not the idea of connecting with someone new. When a stranger knocks on his door, claiming to be picking up a laptop, Paul allows him in—but discovers the man has a very different mission in mind. When the stranger shows up again, Paul challenges him to give him just one reason to live. The stranger agrees to the challenge but warns Paul not to expect a path he would have guessed or chosen.

As the stranger promised, Paul’s life takes a wild and fateful turn. A robbery connects him with a woman who has also lost the love of her life, and, in a seemingly unrelated incident, Paul rescues a young boy from bullying, only to find the boy needs a different kind of rescue. The twists leave Paul wondering what these people have in common, and why they were brought together. Who—or what—really is this Christmas stranger, and how will Paul find meaning once again?

 


Diary of Small Discontents: New & Selected Poems 1974-2024 book cover imageDiary of Small Discontents: New & Selected Poems 1974–2024
John Yau
Omnidawn (October 6, 2025)

A collection of poetry showcasing the diversity of subjects and forms in Yau’s writing.

This collection brings together work from half a century of writing by John Yau. Preoccupied with forms and musical structures, Yau’s work includes sestinas, sonnets, pantoums, and lists, as well as invented forms. Employing both strict and open-ended frameworks, Yau creates multi-faceted poems that can shift abruptly from humor to outrage and consider topics including Chinese American identity, school shootings, invented countries, and haunted memories. Some poems are grounded in an autobiographical voice, while others take on the voices of other characters, including contemporary artists and a fictional Chinese private eye.

Spanning the vast diversity of Yau’s forms and subjects, the poems in Diary of Small Discontents add up to an unapologetically original collection.

 


Blue-Collar Blessed: A Humble Life in Idaho book cover imageBlue-Collar Blessed: A Humble Life in Idaho
Denny LaVé
Skyhorse Publishing (November 4, 2025)

A blue-collar entrepreneur’s unlikely path from chaos to Senate candidacy.

From a broken Montana home to Washington’s marble halls, Denny LaVé’s extraordinary memoir chronicles an American journey defying every expectation. Perfect for readers who loved Hillbilly Elegy and Educated, this powerful narrative reveals how faith and hard work can transform fractured beginnings into purposeful leadership.

Born into dysfunction—his father secretly took him across state lines at age four—LaVé bounced between schools, parents, and broken promises. Through setbacks from failing college to heat stroke during Marine boot camp, he refused to surrender.

His unconventional healing path included living in a 1,000-year-old Dominican monastery in France, building a multi-million-dollar construction business from scratch, raising six sons, and confronting trauma through intensive therapy—including a harrowing suicide attempt that became his turning point.

LaVé’s candid exploration of childhood sexual trauma and mental health struggles offers hope to anyone battling shame. His journey from broken child to successful entrepreneur and Senate candidate proves healing is possible and ordinary Americans can make extraordinary differences.

Culminating in a face-to-face confrontation with political establishment that inspired his Senate run, this raw, inspiring memoir will resonate with anyone that believes character matters more than credentials and sometimes the most unlikely candidates are exactly what democracy needs.

 

Bruce Wagner’s Pick of the Week

Unscripted book cover imageUnscripted
Cheryl Hines
Skyhorse Publishing (November 11, 2025)

Not even Cheryl Hines, a rising star in Los Angeles’ legendary improvisational comedy company The Groudlings (before she got her own one on the Hollywood Walk of Fame), could have done justice to the narrative of her own life—but her new memoir, Unscripted, certainly does. Best known for her generation-long portrayal of Larry David’s wife on HBO’s Curb Your Enthusiasm, her story spans her beginnings in a small Florida town, bartending in LA (where she audits improv classes), working as Rob Reiner’s personal assistant, then gets Curbed—and her romance with Robert F. Kennedy Jr before and after he decides to run for president. With biting wit that’s as brutally poignant as it is mordant, Cheryl reveals the challenges and joys of a blended family with her husband, the activist lawyer who became an enemy of Big Pharma and was ultimately appointed Secretary of the Health and Human Services. She too is a lifelong education activist and a tireless drummer for United Cerebral Palsy, inspired by her late nephew Michael who had the disease. If you bought this book to read about her time with Larry David, fine, but you won’t believe what’s coming—the fearlessness, good humor, and WTF aspects of her journey are absolutely inspiring. The off-color joke she’s forced to repeat to the hard-of-hearing Ethel Kennedy at a birthday party in Hyannis Port—Cheryl’s the virgin patsy in a long-running set-up gag by the Kennedy siblings—is worth the price of admission.

 

Book of the Week

Unscripted book cover imageUnscripted
Cheryl Hines
Skyhorse Publishing (November 11, 2025)

The highly anticipated memoir by the Emmy-nominated actress, director, and comedian Cheryl Hines.

As an actress, director, producer, and comedian, Cheryl Hines is best known for her twenty-four-year portrayal of Larry David’s wife, Cheryl, on HBO’s Curb Your Enthusiasm, for which she received two Emmy Award nominations. She also played leading roles on the ABC sitcom Suburgatory and the FOX comedy Son of Zorn and is recognized for her work in the films RV, Waitress, and Bad Moms Christmas. In 2014, she was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. Cheryl is married to Secretary of Health and Human Services Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

An Excerpt from Unscripted

The Groundlings could be a competitive place because there were always scouts for sketch shows in attendance. Everyone wanted to stand out. You have to trust that when you’re up there performing, your scene partner is not going to sabotage you just to make themselves look good. That can happen, but for us it was a place where we would know that, if someone was coming to look at a certain person, even though you might feel envious, you’re still excited for that person and you want them to stand out and be great. You want them to get that agent or that audition or that role, so there has to be mutual trust.

The people I was performing with were rock solid. They would always make me look good, and I believed they wanted the best for me. I felt the same about them. It was exciting because you would watch people being flown to New York to audition for SNL, see them get a great agent or book a job on a sitcom. Even when it didn’t have to do with me, I’d think, “Oh, I’m in the mix for something and if I keep working hard, stay focused, and keep on this path, I know it’s going to lead me somewhere good.”

By then, I had found my way back to myself. I had a good sense of who I was and had the chance to build back my self-esteem. I was with people I trusted.

It was an exhilarating time. The show attracted all kinds of celebrities and influential people: Vince Vaughn, John Kennedy Jr., Christopher Guest. At the time, I was working for Rob Reiner, and he and his wife Michele would come to the shows, which I found incredibly supportive. I was witnessing other Groundlings like Will Ferrell, Cheri Oteri, Chris Kattan, and Chris Parnell skyrocket. Lisa Kudrow was on Friends and Mindy Sterling was in Austin Powers.

I felt that I was close to something, but not quite there. I kept getting called back for the sketch show, Mad TV, but they didn’t offer me the part. Eventually, I had to quit working for the Reiners. It was too hard to keep taking time off for auditions and callbacks.

I started to book small roles on sitcoms. I even got a few lines on Friends! It was great, but I wasn’t making enough to pay my rent. As the weeks went by, I started to become more and more desperate for a way to earn money to pay my bills. Becky was starting to worry about me. She knew I was running on fumes. She called.

“Hey, I sent you my ATM card so you can withdraw some cash. You’ve got to hang in there, Cher,” she said reassuringly.

“What? Rebecca! You didn’t have to do that,” I told her.

“I know you’re dying out there. Check your mail. It should be there,” she said.

“Oh my god, thank you. I can’t believe you did that.”

And there it was. An envelope postmarked Orlando, Florida, with Becky’s ATM card. I ran to the closest bank. I inserted the card, typed in the PIN, and requested $40. Insufficient Funds. Hmmm, I guess I was asking for too much. I requested $20. Insufficient Funds. I laughed so hard it annoyed the people waiting behind me. That’s my sister! She’d give me the last dollar she had—if she had one. I just imagined her going through the trouble of going to the post office and mailing me that card. It didn’t matter that she had no money in her account, the gesture alone made me feel so loved. I called her back.

“Hey, I tried your card, but I couldn’t get any money out,” I told her.

We laughed for a long time.

“Why would you send me a card if you didn’t have any money in your account?”

“Well, it’s always a crapshoot. Try it again next week on Friday. I might have some money by then,” she said.

I sent the card back to her. I wasn’t going to take her last dollar, but man, did I love her pluck.

I was barely scraping by and was looking for ways to stay inspired to keep me focused. I loved watching stand up, but I didn’t have enough money to actually go to a club, so one Saturday night I called The Improv.

“Listen, I can’t afford to pay the door charge, but I can scrape together enough for the two-drink minimum if you’ll just let me in,” I said.

The poor guy answering the phone said, “Who are you? What are you talking about?”

“My friends and I, we just can’t . . . Well, I can’t afford to buy tickets. But we are really good laughers. We’re really loud. We’ll be the best audience you’ve ever seen.”

“Oh, God. Okay. Just come to the door and ask for Bill. I’ll see what I can do,” he said.

We went and laughed our asses off as promised. That’s pretty much how I got by for the next few years.

My roommate Maria turned out to be a lifeline for me. She loaned me money for rent and a little extra to buy food when I couldn’t afford it. To this day, we’re as close as ever. We’ve traveled to Santorini and back and have been to every Hollywood party that would have us. I had found an angel in the City of Angels.

Maria’s generosity was a temporary Band-Aid at the time but didn’t stop the bleeding. My anxiety about money became more and more intense. I was performing in the Sunday company at the Groundlings, doing my best to write new sketches every week. I was sitting on the news that Larry asked me to play the role of his wife on a new show, but couldn’t move forward until I had an official offer from HBO. My anxiety steadily amplified as the weeks turned into months.

 


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